I’m very tired of the past 2 weeks. I’ve been identified with my circumstances and believing in lack. Because of that, I started taking actions not based on trust. I believed in lack of money, lack of resources and lack of capabilities. From that belief, I started to take actions on the physical level. I started to look for a job I don’t want to do.
The actions in themselves aren’t wrong. Taking them from a belief of lack of trust and capabilities is. Wrong in the sense that it’s out of alignment and therefore feels wrong (as negative emotions are a signal from your True Self you’re out of alignment)
It’s not the circumstances or the actions that make you feel bad (about yourself). It’s how you look at them and from what belief they come from.
Today is a day of rest for me. To think and contemplate about what happened the last 2 weeks. Besides walking the dogs and going to Ivy (our pony) and taking care of my daughter, I’m devoting my time to studying the teachings of Bentinho. I want to get myself back in alignment, to feel trust and peace and joy again instead of the fear and anxiety of the last 2 weeks.
Taking a break is a good thing. Even if it feels like you don’t have “time” for it. Especially when you don’t have time and feel rushed and depleted, it’s important to take a break.
And I’m back again. I’ve learned from my experiences from the past 2 weeks and I’m ready to get myself back on track again. The lessons I’ve learned from the past period are very valuable. To prevent myself from falling into this trap I’m going to work on them and see what I can practically change in my day-to-day life to help me stay aligned longer and stronger!
“Have you ever noticed that when you’re really excited and things start to accelerate, a thought comes up like, “Oh no, I can’t do that! Oh my God, what would happen if I were to continue along this line?” Limiting thoughts and fears like this are meant to be brought to the surface. It’s an invitation asking you: “Do you still want to hold on to this idea or are you ready to move on? Do you wish to have faith? Do you wish to have trust? Are you all-in?” If you are all-in you can live the super accelerated life. If you are not all-in—forget about it.”
It feels so much better to be more in line again. To not be so taken up by feelings of insecurity and anxiety. Instead of acting from a fear-based and lack-based belief I’m working my way back to living from trust, openness, and relaxation.
Relax. It’s all fine anyway.
Last day of the week. Last day of a hectic time. There’s nothing wrong with losing yourself in lack beliefs. It’s just as valid as living an aligned and relaxed life. It’s just as valid to be and feel lost and to try again. There’s nothing wrong with that.
Just because it’s here, means it’s already accepted. And if it’s already accepted, it’s already loved. You and your so-called “mistakes” are just as loved as your balanced and aligned life.
Life is about all and full expressions. Not just about the “right” expressions and experiences.
Don’t do self-blame. There’s no point. You and everything you bring to this life is already here and already accepted. Why resist what’s already here and loved?
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